"We are looking for a kick butt writer.

I need someone who is
Creative
Loves Marketing
Extremely good communicator
Fast
Smart"

Nope.

"Cheerful Copywriter..."

Stop. Next.

"Must possess excellent diplomacy, tact, and judgment..."

Ah, sigh. No, no, no - do a real good one. I want to let it sink in.

"Attention to detail a MUST. Ability to perform multiple tasks on an often stringent timeline. Thorough knowledge of Microsoft Word and Microsoft Excel. Must be highly self-motivated. Project Management experience with knowledge of Medical Communications services is required."

Oh - well goddamn! I had that shit down 'til the "knowledge of [m]edical [c]ommunications" thing.

I have been looking at this sort of nonsense for weeks. In advance I admit that I'm writing about God more now that I don't believe - but why is it - how people demand that -they- have God work for them in every job offer? How do they expect and truthfully expect that -they- will be the ones - with their so-often shitty businesses - to attract the "excellent" and "extremely good" and "smart" and "efficient" and "great for fucking after work-hours"? Oh - well that one doesn't become obvious until you've moved into the office.

But no, really - "God" is the proper term for what they're searching for. Job offerers are hard monotheists. They want Anselm's "than that which no greater thing can be conceived" - the one master of the universe - at their feet, in their office chairs, accepting their professionally-streamlined paychecks. And any performance short of the Almighty is unacceptable, vulgar.

I find this disgusting. I find it human, to want to subjugate one's own gods to serve one's well-being - paradoxical if they are the gods, but still I see it happening in every prayer. Marx knew it; I realized it with him recently. How often have you heard people describe God so confidently? They have already understood God; in Hebrew the word rendered "understand" in translation to English is also rendered "conquer" in other contexts. It doesn't matter that the descriptions don't match each other so well sometimes; in all the common models God is either under control, safe and even tame - or rejected as useless, even condemnable if God does not suit one's purpose. Even Calvinists and Muslims yet think of God as on their side, invariably defending and empowering them, although in their view God is the uncontrollable controller like that of Aristoteles (Aristotle).

I remember being one of them and realize how dehumanizing it was, that is how one continually fought to keep from desiring one thing over another - as Buddhists do - since God's will is that which would accomplish all things. There in fact is no need for ambition or action at all - fate, which in this case is a self-conscious entity, would bring about its logos. And if one responds "But God has caused some to consciously want to do this thing or the other," granted. But still I wanted to act against that monist determinism - indeed pantheism - as if God's will were something separate from mine, rather than believing that my will were an emanation or part of God's. I wanted to make God someone or something I could influence (and be influenced by) and proceeded to attempt squeezing anything I could squeeze out of God.

I don't see anything different to how we act toward each other. And don't think I'm downplaying it for selflessness' sake; even if you got a vision of "the greater good" you gotta be prepared to tear down any lesser good in the way (even cannibalizing it to feed the growing machine). We serve the powers that be with aims to join their ranks in a matter of time.

Just taking notes, taking notes. I'm glad that God hasn't disappeared, lost forever to me; only died, decomposing into another philosophy in my mind. Always anxiously, fretfully striving in submission to, subjugation of my ideal (idol).